Wednesday, August 03, 2011

In Which I Quit

Things have been quiet here for several months. I was limited by my organization's social media policy, to be sure, but I was also limited by my own concerns.

You see, I haven't been happy in my work since January. I survived a brutal weekend on-call, a coworker went on bedrest leaving me and another coworker to cover, and my division continued to use me inappropriately. I can't tell you how many times I learned about a tumor progression or strained family dynamics weeks or months after the fact.

The division saw me as the bill payer and resource keeper. Social work is so much more than that.

Was I able to educate families beyond the division's limited use of me? Absolutely. Was I able to do a lot of good? There's no doubt in my mind.

But I felt like I was drowning there. And in the midst of all this, my old dream of writing resurfaced.

My last day of work was June 30. I can't say that I'll never come back to social work- it is in my blood after all- but I want to see where writing will take me. I'm burned out and need to reacquaint myself with myself.

In the month since, I haven't missed being there at all. I'm infinitely happier. I know without a doubt it was the right decision.

I miss my coworkers and the families I worked with but I'm excited to see what will happen next. I don't regret my time there- it wasn't all bad- but it's definitely time to move forward.

Thank you, dear readers, for all you've helped this blog to be.

Sunday, January 02, 2011

On-Call Superstitions

I'm in the middle of my first weekend on-call. It's strangely scheduled due to the holiday. On Friday night, off New Year's Day, back on for Sunday and then Monday, which is the observed holiday. Let's just say I can't wait for 8 am Tuesday morning!

I realized I have a few things that I will or will not do while on-call, as if these things can improve my odds.

I don't make plans. I hate leaving things early and I'm always paranoid I won't hear the pager.

I don't light candles when I'm at home.

I don't make any meals that involve lots of preparation. Quick and easy is the name of the game.

I will often wear more office-appropriate attire while I'm home. If I'm ready to go, then I won't be called? It doesn't seem to make any difference but in my mind.

I try to catch up on things around the house. Cleaning, picking things up, laundry.

If I'm able to make it to church, I sit in the back at the end of the row. Just in case.

I thank God for every hour, or half hour, that I do not get paged. It helps me keep a more peaceful spirit. If I do get paged, I start praying for wisdom and strength!

What are your on-call superstitions?