Wednesday, August 03, 2011

In Which I Quit

Things have been quiet here for several months. I was limited by my organization's social media policy, to be sure, but I was also limited by my own concerns.

You see, I haven't been happy in my work since January. I survived a brutal weekend on-call, a coworker went on bedrest leaving me and another coworker to cover, and my division continued to use me inappropriately. I can't tell you how many times I learned about a tumor progression or strained family dynamics weeks or months after the fact.

The division saw me as the bill payer and resource keeper. Social work is so much more than that.

Was I able to educate families beyond the division's limited use of me? Absolutely. Was I able to do a lot of good? There's no doubt in my mind.

But I felt like I was drowning there. And in the midst of all this, my old dream of writing resurfaced.

My last day of work was June 30. I can't say that I'll never come back to social work- it is in my blood after all- but I want to see where writing will take me. I'm burned out and need to reacquaint myself with myself.

In the month since, I haven't missed being there at all. I'm infinitely happier. I know without a doubt it was the right decision.

I miss my coworkers and the families I worked with but I'm excited to see what will happen next. I don't regret my time there- it wasn't all bad- but it's definitely time to move forward.

Thank you, dear readers, for all you've helped this blog to be.

2 comments:

karen gerstenberger said...

Blessings to you as you follow your heart. You only have this one, precious life, and you are wise to listen deeply to your inner knowing. I'll look forward to reading what's next for you!

Luvmypeanut said...

I too recently made a change, went to a job I thought would give me security, great benefits, etc. But the place was a nightmare to work at. They were all nasty and grumpy and unfriendly and expected over 50 hrs a week! So I was lucky enough to go back to my old job, which I loved but thought I had to leave for better benefits. It hurts us a bit in the insurance department, but I am so happy at my old job. So I understand taking that leap. I love your writing, so please keep posting! Always trust your heart and your gut!